Blog| December Goals

November was as crazy as I predicted and I managed to get a little bit of relaxing time before the big rush hits. But we have a big trip planned in a week and I have a ton of presents to draw, so let’s get organized. Goals time!

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November Goals

Personal:

  • Get the house cleaned up and deep cleaned!  We got a lot of the house organized and sorted, but still need a few more areas cleaned
  • Fix the backyard fence Its a neverending battle, but most of the fence has been secured!
  • BUDGET Now just to keep to it :\
  • Use the bullet journal! Still getting the hang of it, but it’s been useful!
  • Spend more time with the animals and socialize the kittens The kittens are now out of the nursery and roaming the house like crazy. They’re cool with us, but I think we need to get them ok with being handled with strangers. Black missed out on a home because he was too skittish.

Work:

  • Get Inktober art scanned and prints made– I got everything scanned, but I need more print paper to get them all printed.
  • Wonder Woman art piece! Ended up being a Batwoman piece but I got it done!
  • Start working on Xmas gifts Most of them are written and I’ve gotten a few done already.
  • Redo the Etsy shop and get everything listed Go check out the Etsy! Everything is listed now!!
  • Work in your office! Yep and yep though I need to clean it up a bit more.
  • Start back up your IG Done! Posting regularly now!
  • Draw and post 2 times a week at least- The only thing I didn’t get done. I drew and painted semi-regularly, but not 2x a week

11/12 goals done! I think that’s a record! I was pretty productive and I’m very happy with my progress! I’m still trying to keep out of my lethargy slog, but I think getting back on meds has helped a lot.

I’m working on keeping on top of everything so I’m not mad dashing to get things done, but cross your fingers!

Now December goals!

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December Goals

Personal:

  • Finish deep cleaning the house
  • Rearrange the storage unit
  • No fast food this month
  • Budget! Save at least $100
  • Have people come and socialize kittens

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Work:

  • Get the Pre-Orders shipped out
  • Finish Christmas art
  • Work on one large painting
  • Start prepping for Lubbock-Con
  • Mark down old inventory

I get from Christmas to New Years off at work so I should have time to get a lot done. I also want to get ahead on blog posts and schedule some ahead of time. Another unofficial goal is to keep going through my clothes and getting rid of some and getting rid of more of any unwanted clutter around the house. That always helps to keep me focused.

Here’s to staying motivated and getting work done and also getting some me time!

What are your goals for the month?

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-Sam <3

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Blog| When It’s Too Much

I live a busy life. It’s a recurring theme in everything I do. If you know me as a friend, you know you need to ask me a couple weeks ahead of time if I’m free and if it’s last minute the answer is probably no.

Once upon a time, I didn’t have a social life. I’d go to work, go home, read or watch TV or play games or paint until 2am in the morning, and then go to sleep and do it all over. I’d always find a reason to cancel plans or bail out of something and stay home.

Things changed and now I’m constantly on the move. The days when there are no events or things to go to feel unreal because I feel like I forgot I’m suppose to be somewhere. After October, I realized I still had a bunch of events to do.

We had the gallery and Ladies Night and my guest speaking event and birthdays and parties and then we had to clean the house, take had Leon’s birthday, the Museum event, etc. And then I got sick on Halloween. And then I stayed sick for like a week. And then I got food poisoning.

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I also had social media I had to keep up with. Moderating groups and taking care of issues and fighting people about why no, I don’t have a lot of hope for Justice League.

Lo and behold, I got overwhelmed. I almost broke down and cried in the bathroom at work. I had a headache for two days straight before I realized I had stopped taking my medication. My voice was raw and shot for over a week and I wanted to lay down and sleep and not do anything. I had to go home early from work one day and I passed out for like 3-4 hours immediately.

I wasn’t taking care of myself and that’s a slippery slope when you have anxiety and depression. I rely on my support system and routine. It keeps me grounded and keeps me from becoming overwhelmed by all my events and to-do list.

I need to get back into it, calm myself, and focus. A relapse is a sure fire way to kill any momentum I have from Inktober and with the holiday season hitting, I need that momentum.

So what are some of my routines?


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1.  No Staying up Past Midnight

I am not someone that functions on little sleep anymore. I use to be but now I get headaches and am cranky and have an awful time getting up in the morning. Ideally I should be in bed by 11, but what can I say? When I get more sleep, I find I’m not hitting the alarm twelve times and throwing my hair in a bun in an attempt to look presentable. The more put together I look, the more focused and professional I feel at work. Fake it til you make it. I’m an adult baby in a big girl job who has a vague idea about what she’s doing but I can at least act like I know what I’m doing.

Making sure I get enough sleep also keeps me from wanting to nap and drink a ton of coffee with a lot of sugar.

2. Clean/Deep Clean the House

If the house is messy, clean laundry piled up in a basket, dog toy scraps all over the floor, and dishes are covering the counter then I get stressed and don’t want to work on anything. I also have little desire to fix it the worse it gets. See, depression is weird. By keeping up with it before it gets that bad, I keep myself from using it as an excuse to not do anything and also keep it from being an unmanageable mess.

Deep cleaning is also very very helpful. I go through these periods where I want to throw EVERYTHING away and just list a minimalist life, but that doesn’t quite work for me. I try though. Yesterday, to distract myself from working, I went through my whole closet and pulled out any ill-fitting or old clothes that I know I don’t wear. I organized my drawers and swept and hung stuff on the wall and put away ALL the laundry. The room ended up looking nicer and I felt a lot better now that there wasn’t so much clutter.

Clutter can make you feel claustrophobic and stressed so sometimes you need to do a clean sweep and toss out anything you don’t really love or use. And if you don’t think you can do that, get a giant tub and put it all there. In a couple of months, if you don’t miss it or need it then you know you can get rid of it.

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3. Eat

I don’t mean like binge but when I’m relapsing then I forget to eat or can’t bring myself to put in the effort to make myself food. Make toast for breakfast. Eat a salad for lunch. Cook pasta for dinner and eat the leftovers for the next few days. Make sure you are eating every meal.

Lethargy is a killer. It saps any will to clean, do work, or just enjoy things. If you don’t eat, it’ll just feed that lethargy by making you cranky and irritable and feeling sick. So eat!

4. Take a Time Out

A lot of the work I do is on social media. Managing the Artist Collective, events, and posting my art means I’m constantly checking notifications. Is anyone asking me a question, are people debating civilly and not name calling, is traffic to an event picking up? It’s constant. But that also means my energy gets sapped pretty quickly. I can’t tell people off because I’m irritable and they’re annoying me. If I don’t check the notifications, what if I miss something?

It’s not fun and gives me anxiety. So sometimes, I let people know I’m outty and if they need me then they can text. I read or watch TV or nap or clean. I break away from the screen and disconnect because being connected is exhausting.

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5. Write Stuff Down

When I’m overwhelmed, writing down everything I need to get done can help immensly. I’ll write down all my deadlines, figure out which ones are the most pressing, and work on those first. If there’s something that can wait, it goes on the bottom of the list. By making an action plan, things tend to look less daunting when I’m done.

Having a planner or journal also helps. I had a Life Planner but found I didn’t like how big and cumbersome it was. I read about Bullet journaling and grabbed a small notebook from Target and started using that. It takes a while to get use to, but I can take it with me and write down all my events, reminder lists, keep track of habits, and keep a budget. Being able to write stuff down and have it all in once physical place keeps me from feeling stressed about not knowing what I have coming up or if I lost my grocery list, etc. I know where to look to find the info.


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These are just a few things but it’s a start. Routine is good and healthy. And some days it’s okay to just nap on the couch and not do anything. But too much can be bad and you have to recognize the signs before it gets worse.

What do you do when you are stressed or overwhelmed or feeling depressed?

-Sam <3

Inktober 2017!

Guys, I’m really surprised with myself. Like really. I thought I wasn’t going to be able to do it but the most I was ever behind was one day and I would always make it up. I not only did all 31 days, but I did extra! Craziness!

So here’s a recap of all 31 images I did for Inktober!

 

I’m not in love with all of them, but I love most of them and I think I’ve gotten a whole lot better if you compare last year’s Inktober to this year. I will be doing pre-orders for prints, originals, and a sketchbook collection! If you’d like any of these, fill free to feel out this form! This helps me know what to order since ordering all at once would be very expensive.

Oh and those two bonus ones? Both from the Persephone prompt because I’m a nerd:

You can order them too ;)

Let me know what days are your favorite!

-Sam <3

Blog| November Goals

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Almond’s B-Day!

It has been a hella busy month, as predicted.

From galleries to Almond’s Birthday to Halloween events and Disneyland, I feel like we haven’t had time to stop or pause. Which is probably why we are sick right now but c’est la vie.

Despite all that, I actually got a lot done! Not as much as I wanted, but I’m an over achiever. So let’s recap our crazy busy October (I’ll be putting in pictures from all the different events this month as well!)

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October Goals

Personal:

  • Get Mae Mae fixed-  She’s fixed and currently resting! 
  • BUDGET- I’m gonna give this to myself even though we are super duper broke. But this was our Christmas and we’re being tight budgeted until next year!
  • Pack and plan for Disneyland–  Disneyland was amaaaaazing! 
  • Keep the house clean- I could have done better. The house isn’t a total wreck but keeping up with it fell aside for a while
  • Relax and have fun-  Definitely did that.

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Inktober!

Work:

  • Inktober-   Um excuse me, but I FINISHED INKTOBER! YAAASSS!
  • Work on Wonder Woman Piece- ……..didn’t do this. 
  • Plan out NaNoWriMo- aaaaaaaaand I scrapped this because lol yeah too busy
  • Painting for November Gallery- aaaaaaaaaannd I scrapped this too. Hey I’m learning to let go and not do all the things
  • Plan out paintings for December-  I do have ideas! I’m going to be working on them after I get a few deadlines done! 
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Mine and Rony’s designs got used in a screen printing workshop!

Projects:

  • 31 Days of Halloween Movies- We got far but nope
  • 31 Day Challenge for IG- THIS DIED SO FAST OMG

6/10 is still pretty good! And I’m not dying like last year, just tired. We had fun, we did a ton of art, we hung out with friends and enjoyed ourselves at Disney. I can’t really complain much. November is going to be all about getting things back into order after the craziness and focusing on prepping for holiday season.

I will be making a post later today about Inktober and preorders for prints, originals, and a sketchbook collection so be on the look out for that! I’m looking to get more professional prints and seeing about having a colored version of the collection.

Lots to do but I’m prepared!

And now! November!


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November Goals

Personal:

  • Get the house cleaned up and deep cleaned!
  • Fix the backyard fence
  • BUDGET
  • Use the bullet journal!
  • Spend more time with the animals and socialize the kittens
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Our Halloween party! I went as Medusa and Rony as a skeleton

Work:

  • Get Inktober art scanned and prints made
  • Wonder Woman art piece!
  • Start working on Xmas gifts
  • Redo the Etsy shop and get everything listed
  • Work in your office!
  • Start back up your IG
  • Draw and post 2 times a week at least

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Halloween night. Rony was John Zacherle and I was Jack Skellington. Shortly after this pic was taken, I went into and passed out all night. Yep, I slept through Halloween.

I want to keep the momentum of Inktober going and keep drawing. I made so much progress and I don’t want to fall into an art block slump so I think if I can keep working on things I’m not good at and just draw for arts sake then that will be amazing. I have deadlines and projects to work on and I want to get into working on my Etsy more and focusing on that.

The kittens and Mae Mae are officially out of the room and roaming the house with all the other animals so that means I can deep clean my office and actually start working in here. Stripes was adopted out last week and we have a potential adopter next week, which leaves us with Black and White and Mae Mae. So here’s to finding them all homes!

October was pretty awesome and though I didn’t hit all my goals, I hit the important ones. I’m motivated and feel excited about art again and can’t wait to see where this all goes!

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Also what content do you want to see from me? Do you miss my fashion photosets, want more art or tutorials or progress blogs, or recaps and events? Let me know!

Happy November and Feliz Dia de los muertos!

-Sam <3

Blog| Mood Board

Recently, I’ve actually been using my Pinterest. I’ve never been a big fan of it. It always felt hard to navigate and find original sources and you get five thousand notifications, which I hate. But it’s gotten better and I’ve found a few uses for it.

One of those uses is using it as a digital mood board.

I’ve seen a few different artists use it as such and it’s a much better solution than what I had been doing (saving each picture to a folder on my computer). You can use it for inspiration, references, and a general atmosphere guide. I’ll pin something because I like the style, colors, pose, face, or just so I can see how to draw something I’m not familiar with. It’s actually a great resource and I wish I had started to use it sooner.

So I thought I would give you a peak at what mine currently looks like!

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Day 2 of my Inktober prompts is Owl and I needed a good reference of a barn owl since I’ve never drawn one before. I ended up using the one on the top right and modified it to hold a branch and then used the double triangle shape since I’ve been in love with geometric designs lately.

I’m also starting my own apothecary cabinet at home and it’s one of my prompts so I’ve been pinning different apothecary set ups as well.

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I’m big on mermaids and long, tentacle like floating hair so I pinned a bunch of those as well as some hair designs and things I might use for paintings later. I’ve been trying to get better at drawing hair so I like to pin things in the style I wish I could draw in. The 2nd from the left on the bottom was mostly color inspiration!

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I pinned some pattern inspirations here and flowers because I’m always trying to draw flowers better. Some cauldron’s and cloche designs for inspo for later prompts. That Batgirl on the bottom right is gorgeous and I ended up pinning it for inspiration for future Ladies Night flyers.

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I’m big on skulls, horns, and creepy hand poses and pinned a few references I found. I had the idea of having a girl covering her face with her hands and drawing eyes in her palms and making her whole body galaxy colored with white lineart, but haven’t gotten to that yet. I also want to draw some creepy witch/monster hands for Inktober and maybe do another animal skull.

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And a lot of these are Persephone and crystals inspired. I want to draw a neat pomegranate with flowers and skulls for one of my prompts. And I absolutely suck at drawing crystals so I pinned some for reference. I’m doing a Tarantula with crystals growing out of it later and need to get my crystal game in order. And then of course more flowers because I have a problem.

I’ve only been using my mood board for a month or so but it’s already helped a bunch when it comes to inspiration and coming up with new ideas. I have a seperate board for clothing inspiration and things like that and I think I’m going to start pinning them in my mood board instead. I use it mostly for art anyways and I’m fashion challenged for the most part.

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If you’d like to check our my art board you can see it here! I pin more stuff as I need to and with Inktober, it’s probably going to get a lot bigger.

Do you use Pinterest for your mood board or do you use something else and what do you put on it? Let me know and share yours in the comments!

-Sam <3

Blog| October Goals

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And here we are. October. From here on out it’s a constant stream of art, movies, baking, costumes, and preparing for Disneyland. It’s our favorite time of the year but we definitely go overboard.

But first, let’s recap last month to see how I did and if I got my shit together in time for the chaos.


September Goals

Personal:

  • Get back into eating healthy and not surviving off coffee
  • Budget budget budget
  • Go see a doctor
  • Get at least a couple of the kittens adopted
  • Give yourself a break to rest

Work:

  • Figure out deadlines and work on one a week
  • Get back on schedule with blogging & #52selflies & 365 Project
  • Sketch anything and plan out Inktober
  • Start setting date for Ladies Night

Projects:

  • Halloween Instagram
  • Garage Sale

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This is the best I’ve done with my monthly goals ever, but it also makes since because I made them simple on purpose. We’ve definitely been eating out a lot this month and we need to get back into cooking and eating healthy, if only for our wallet’s sake. But I did budget even if I haven’t been great at sticking to it, I saw a doctor (and am finally feeling wonderful!), and Grey & Black are both going to Rony’s mom’s neighbor. We still have them for now, it’s mostly just finding a time to meet up with them or going down to New Mexico and dropping them off.

I did get my deadlines straightened, but didn’t stick to the once a week schedule. Some I dropped out of, some I used old work for. I’m back on track, but definitely have some work to do. And I had to drop the 365 Project & #52Selfies just because it didn’t feel right to pick it up after such a long time. It felt like cheating.

But Ladies Night is officially set for November 4th and we’re working on the flyer and I sketched out my Inktobers and made my own prompt list!

So 8.5/11! Yay!

Now….let’s look at October


October Goals

Personal:

  • Get Mae Mae fixed
  • BUDGET
  • Pack and plan for Disneyland
  • Keep the house clean
  • Relax and have fun

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Work:

  • Inktober
  • Work on Wonder Woman Piece
  • Plan out NaNoWriMo
  • Painting for November Gallery
  • Plan out paintings for December

Projects:

  • 31 Days of Halloween Movies
  • 31 Day Challenge for IG

There’s a lot of simple goals and there’s a lot of challenges. Literally and non metaphorically.

The personal stuff is overall easy. If I stay on top of everything, don’t slack, and have a plan then all of that should be easy. What happens is that when I get busy, everything falls apart in the house. If the house falls apart, it makes me not want to work. So I need to keep my shit together.

And Mae Mae needs to get fixed before she goes into heat again.

Inktober, the Halloween movies, and IG Challenge are going to be the most pressuring but I’m determined to get them all done and keep at them. I need to come up with something for the Wonder Woman gallery next month and the Star Comics gallery and just plan out December’s. So two paintings this month, Inktober, story plan layout, and idea sketching.

I wasn’t lying when I said October is my busiest month.

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As before, I’m linking up with Nicole from Writes Like a Girl blog! Be sure to check out her October Small Goals and all the other lovely linked up blogs!

I’ll see you on the other side

-Sam <3

Blog| Fall Equinox & Changes

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Fall Equinox has come and it’s officially the best time of the year!

I thrive in Fall weather. I always get too hot in the summer and freeze in the winter (Spring doesn’t exist in Texas), so Fall is the perfect middle ground for me. And by some miracle, we actually are experiencing Fall weather right on time! It’s rainy and chilly and I can wear sweaters without dying!

And with the Fall Equinox, comes a bit of introspection. It’s been a hard month. Getting Leon back felt like a tipping point. I was working on so many things and as soon as he disappeared, everything stopped. Once we got him back, I thought we could go back to how it was but things had changed. We’re always so busy that I felt it had been ages where I could just sit down for a weekend and breathe, watch a movie or play with the animals.

We’re constantly going from event to meeting to event all the time and being so busy, we were neglecting not just our house but also the animals. I wanted to be able to go and hang out with friends without it being an event I’m hosting and go to the movies and attend galleries because we want to, not because we have to.

We have less than a year left in Lubbock. This is our last holiday season and it’s always busy and flies by so fast. I love what I do, but I also need to realize that I need to take time for myself and live and appreciate everything before suddenly, it’s time to go.

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So what does that mean?

Well for starters, I unfortunately dropped 365 Project and #52Selfies. When Leon went missing, I stopped doing them and I don’t think it’d be right for me to just continue as if there isn’t almost a month’s gap. I’ll have to attempt them again January 1st.

I’m cutting down on some of the events I do and was planning. I’ve had to turn down a couple of galleries so far just because it wasn’t worth killing myself trying to get artwork done so fast to meet the deadlines. I want to enjoy my artwork and the process and the pressure isn’t always the best at making it a fun experience. That’s the opposite of what I want. It’s suppose to be a stress relief and that’s less likely if I’m being forced to do it.

I’m also cutting the blog down to Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays instead of Monday-Thursday. That’ll help me put out better content and get my shit together, honestly. I love my blog but I don’t want to just put out crap for the sake of something getting put out. Taking the photos takes a while and I’d love to have everything written out ahead of time.

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October is almost here and it’s a huge month. I’m laying out my plan for Inktober and we’re attempting to do the 31 Movies in 31 Days challenge, on top of making plans for Disneyland, parties, traveling, animal costumes, and our Halloween Instagram. October kicks off the big holiday season for me and it doesn’t stop until March so I need to get prepared. I do not want it to become this overwhelming chaos where I need to drop stuff.

There’s also the kittens. Two have been adopted so far, but we’re taking care of them until they’re a little bigger and when we have time to take them to the new owners. We still have to find homes for Stripes and White and Mae Mae. We’ve been letting them roam the house every now and then and the kittens have turned into crazy little monsters, getting into everything and playing with whatever they can find. Plus they go through a tooooon of food and litter.

Unfortunately, we recently found out that Mae Mae has miscarried and will not be having anymore kittens. It happened this past week, her due date week, and it’s been a hard thing to process. We went from preparing to help her give birth to making sure she and the other kittens are okay. They said sometimes it just happens or she could have had a parasite or any number of things. Whatever it was, it was out of our hands.

It’s topped off a pretty crappy month and hit us hard. For now, we’re focusing on getting her well and taking care of the kittens we have. We’ll be getting her fixed and will be adopting her out as well. She’s a complete sweetheart and loves people and pets and attention. If we didn’t already have 5 animals, I would love to have kept her and one of the kittens. But they’ll be very good pets to someone.

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Things are going to get crazy soon and I don’t want a repeat of last year where I completely overwhelmed myself and knocked myself back into depression. I’m getting help from people and delegating and making plans. I’m not getting rid of galleries I am holding or our Fall Ladies Night, but I am stepping back a little.

Am I anxious about cutting things back? Definitely. I have this fear of irrelevancy that if I’m not out there all the time, everything I worked or will fall apart. That’s the control freak in me. But the thing is, is it worth it if I’m missing out on things myself? I can do what I can to better the community, but there’s always going to be work to do. There’s no point in killing myself and making myself unhappy.

I’m doing this for me.

The Autumn Equinox is about balance and self evaluation and rebirth. It’s the time to reclaim your power and put yourself back on track to being who you are meant to be. My favorite part of the Equinox has always been tied to mythology.

In some older versions of the story of how Persephone came to be Queen of the Underworld and in my favorite version, Persephone is not kidnapped but wanders into the Underworld herself, either out of adventure or to comfort the crying souls herself. She is adventurous and merciful, but confident. She chooses to be there and is not a pawn in a game. Her choices are her’s alone and the balance of 6 months in Spring and Winter is her choice. And so now we celebrate the Fall Equinox,  the time when night and day are equal and when Persephone descends back into the Underworld and reclaims her spot as Queen and reclaims her power.

I love Persephone and I love what she has come to symbolize. It’s my favorite story and I see her as a figure of confidence and growth and coming into yourself. And maybe it’s time I take a page out of her book and find a balance for myself and become my own Queen of the Underworld.

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-Sam <3